After reading the post linked in my last post it made me wonder what my ending might look like. Will it be happy and fulfilled? Or will I be left sad and seeking? Being that I suffer the “hopeless romantic syndrome” I often wonder if I will find the right girl.
To start with I am terrible at dating. Girls scare the crap out of me. My best friend teases me about this. “You’ve been around the world, shot at, placed in dangerous situations and none of that bothers you. But a 5′4 blonde haired blue eyed beauty brings you to your knees.” he says. Yep thats about it. There is some thing about asking a girl out that is just terrifying and in that moment I’d rather be back in Kuwait facing down a batallion of insurgents than trying to ask her out. I dont know why that is but its true. Maybe its the fact that there is no sort of manual, no training and no rules when it comes to women. Maybe if I had some general guidelines to go by I’d have something to work with. if anyone has any guidelines I’d love to hear them.
Other problem is that its hard to find a good girl these days. For some reason I have no problem attracting the crazies. Fortunately I haven’t been stalked in a long time but I still manage to find every wack-job in cyberspace. Part of the curse of being a nice guy I suppose. I will say I have dated some good girls in my lifetime and I am grateful for the things I learned from each and every one of them. Maybe someday I’ll find one that I can keep and who might want whats left of me…
